Unbearable Suffering: A Personal Battle Against the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headaches

It was a dreary weekday morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a sudden sensation bloomed behind my right eye. Then came rapid jolts, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As each class progressed, the pain eased and then returned with greater force. Four times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I tried paracetamol, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The headaches returned frequently that fall, and again in spring, soon establishing an yearly pattern. September and October were the worst, then February and March. I could anticipate the routine: aura in the shower, early twinges on the commute, full-blown agony in the classroom by 9.30am. In 2019, a GP finally referred me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

This condition often start with intense pain behind one eye that persists up to three hours.

About 1 in 1000 people suffer by the disorder, and men are more frequently diagnosed. Cluster headaches usually start with sudden, severe agony focused on a single eye that peaks within a short time and continues for up to three hours. Attacks come in clusters, every day or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or face sweating. I have an episodic type, which occurs in seasonal bouts; some patients have continuous cluster headaches, defined by the absence of long symptom-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the severity. One research paper rated the pain at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. Another found a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced suicidal thoughts during bouts; the number dropped to 4% when they were pain-free.

One patient, in her seventies, a long-term patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her attacks began when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the ground and hit my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through childhood. Alcohol in her teens, similar to several triggers, made things more intense. After having sherry at her graduation party, she remembers barely being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often interpreted her attacks as drunken behavior. Support eventually came from her parent and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after moving, but often hid her illness. She was fired from one job, partly due to absences during attacks. Her definitive identification came in the early 2000s at a specialist hospital.

Nevertheless, the failure to plan life around unpredictable attacks took its effect. She especially hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her children during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the simple liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described throughout history. “The earliest description of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write authors in a book on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an malevolent entity who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Ancient healing texts suggest unusual remedies for what modern experts would describe as a migraine. In the middle ages, severe headache was recognised as a separate disorder, with treatments including herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the first comprehensive account of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache occurring and vanishing each day at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only formally classified by international medical committees in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a key blood vessel that delivers blood to the brain. Leading specialists in diagnosing the condition explain this.

In the late 1990s, scientists released the results of a study for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the episodes in a brain scanner. The results, featured in a prominent medical publication, showed activation of the a brain region, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they recovered.

In spite of such progress, diagnosis remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had four surgeries before eventually being diagnosed in 2014, after a doctor researched his complaints.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He proceeds by eliminating other common headache conditions, such as migraine, before confirming cluster headaches. A thorough history is essential: on which side do signs occur? For how much time? What season? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be referred to specialist centers. But many first arrive to A&E or are given unsuitable therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has experienced cluster headaches for most of her life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars extracted because dental professionals misinterpreted her symptoms. She believes dentists still need greater awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who replied. I remember calling a support line during an bout in 2021; a calm advisor guided them through oxygen treatment and medication until the attack eased.

National guidance on treatment advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a specific drug delivered by injection. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive options include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly soothes the attacks of some people.

But leading neurologists believe the official guidelines need updating to reflect a more defined treatment pathway and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The duration of the cycle dictates the approach.” Short bouts with occasional attacks are managed with abortive therapy alone. More prolonged or more severe bouts require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes paired with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an injection into the side of the skull where the discomfort is that decreases nerve signals.

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Matthew Decker
Matthew Decker

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